My secret sissy life

Life for many of us is lived in terms of a simple dichotomy - gay passing as straight, transgendered passing as straight and so on. I have an extra level. I present myself to the world as a happy tgirl, relaxed, confident and loving life as a transgendered girl. But...that is a mask. I really see myself as a sissy and want to dress in a totally over the top, extravagantly feminine way that no genetic female would countenance for a moment.

Yet I want to appeal to men and I have found few men who like the ultra fem sissy in all her mincing glory. I want to wear extravagantly ultra sissy dresses, walk and talk in an ultra sissy fashion and still attract macho straight guys. So I am living a lie. I present myself as a woman, or a slut, to attract guys but all the time I want to mince and lisp and ruthlessly excise any element of the masculine from myself. And the number of guys who respond to that, in my experience, is extremely small.


So I play the part of a cd, tv, tgirl. But I'm acting a part. And though the mincing sissy in pink satin and lace is the most theatrical of all tgirl manifestations, it's truly a display of who I really am... My true inner self. When I am at home alone, that is how I dress.