From Dominant Alpha Male to Cum Eating and Back

I am a long time married white man, who isn't looking to change that situation or hurt my wife who has always been by my side.
She has given us two fine sons and so many fond memories. We do almost everything together when we're off at the same times.
We really do have what now is more a best friends relationship and I kinda think she likes it like that. Our sex life has dwindled down to almost nonexistent.
I believe it's equally my fault and hers, but she has had some minor health issues. Now some of the medications she's on has stopped her from feeling
that she wants sex and she has put on weight that I believe makes her feel less attractive too. I have always watched porn, but mostly straight porn.
In the last couple of years that has changed dramatically. I now almost exclusively watch CD/Tranny/Gay/Sissy/Cuckolding and Femdom porn.
Depending on the day lately I fantasize about being the dominant and on other days I fantasize about being the submissive. I find I like it that way.
It keeps it fresh and new in my mind everyday.



I work shiftwork and recently at work we have gone to various weekdays off, many of those days my wife is working.
My wife works what I would call normal, Monday Thur Friday 8 to 5 schedule.
What has been slowly happening since then Is I have become more and more aroused by men and their cocks.
I go to ABS now more and more to find men that want to suck me off on some days and on other days who want to be sucked off.
I look for fem-boi's, CD, sissies who enjoy being taken, used, dominated by Alpha males.
On many days I find that so hot and it gets my cock rock hard when I find it. I like being aggressive and a verbal top on those days.
On other days I put on panties, fishnet stockings under my jeans, slide in a small ass plug after a good shower and cleaning myself out.
All for a chance I find a Alpha male at the ABS, CL, or here on Xhamster, who wants to feel me up and want to unload on me or in me.
I look for men that I can bring home, go to their houses, or perform there in the private rooms at the local ABS with.
On those days I want to be used, told what to do and when to do it, just to be their submissive cum dump.
I find that's all I do when I'm off alone now is watch sissies and gay porn stroke myself edging myself,
then try to set up meeting to fuck suck or get fucked and cummed on. I now crave the taste, smell, and feel of Alpha male cum.
I like to dump my load all over a sissy boi's face and mouth, as well as on or in other occasions, and have the same done to me.



Recently I found a CD that plays the role very well of a dominant Mistress, and now I can't get away enough to go to her.
It's literally like a d**g I crave it so bad, she works me, uses me, forces me to perform, and be obedient,
and where things that even a year ago I would've never thought of, but now it's all I think of, it's all I want.
I have gone to my Mistress and she has made me rim her ass for a hour, then Mistress stood over me when I pleasured him/her enough
and stroked a load out into my hair. Then told me to leave and go home without allowing me to cum or touch myself.
I was made to wear the cum in my hair home that day after she worked my ass with several plugs.
I thought I would cum in my panties on the way home. My cock was so hard all the way there.
Just this week my CD Mistress told me to meet her at a local eatery vanilla of course, for the first time, when I arrived she was already seated.
Before I could seat down she took me to the restroom, into a stall and forced me to suck her off into my mouth, something I never dreamed of doing.
I was so scared and fuckin thrilled at the same time, while I was doing her nice big cock my dicky started oozing pre cum into my panties.
Once She shot her hot load she would not allow me to swallow it until we got back to the table,
she sat across from me and had me show her the load she just gave me. OMG, I was so wet from being so thrilled by the rush of adrenaline.
My cock was hard the entire lunch/chat. Mistress always pushes me a little further every time we talk or get together.
I now am only allowed to cum when my boi-pussy has something in it, I am really liking that part best lately.
I do still enjoy being aggressive and dominating, forcing myself on sissies to fill my sexual needs, but less then before.

I so enjoy watching good gay and faggot porn and edging myself for hours dreaming of the next time I'll taste that savory hot creamy male cum load in my mouth down my throat on my face and now even in my ass. Yet I get equally turned on by being the Alpha male who must be satisfied by his sissy as well.
I know it may sound confusing to many, but to me it is so fuckin hot I live to do these things everyday all day if I could!

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