Wish I knew this years ago.

First, I should say, other than some experimenting when I was young, I have lived a 'straight' life. Married with c***dren, hetero, macho, all of it. The wife and to some degree myself, slowly got bored with our sex life, I wanted to explore, get more experimental, and she just wanted a lot less sex, period. As she lost interest in my horniness I just got more frustrated. It was during the same time frame that the internet and of course, internet porn, became so available. Needless to say I spent serious time watching and jacking and exploring.
I soon discovered tranny porn and shortly after that found myself watching gay porn too. It made me so horny, I had to admit I was nowhere near as 'straight' as I used to believe. Before long I was totally hooked on dicks. I still love sexy girls and hot pussy, but my attraction to hot cock was even more powerful. I jerked off a ton of cum staring at t-girl and gay porn and loved it. I still do, but like all pervs, I wanted more, so I joined ********** and after a few false starts actually met a guy out of town in a motel room. He was young and nervous as hell and I was old and nervous as hell. Surprisingly after a bit of tension, I suggested we shower together and two minutes in, we were both wet, hard and ready for more. I sucked him off, ( it really did not take long) and after he sucked me for a while, I fucked his ass. It was the first m/m fuck for both of us, but it went damn well, I took my time, he squealed a little and then got comfortable with my dick balls deep in his tight sweet asshole. I was so horny that I came way sooner then I usually do, but it was fantastic. He got rock hard again while I fucked him, so I blew him again after I came in his asshole. With a few short breaks, we did that 3 times that night, no small feat for an old fucker like me.
I continued to meet and fuck guys whenever I could and finally even admitted to myself I was probably a repressed fucking homo all my life. Actually bisexual cause I did and do, still love cunt.
After screwing women all my life, I was like a k** in a candy store, sticking my dick in every guys ass I could find who was willing. I always topped. Then a month or so ago, I met a guy who even though his profile said he was a bottom, said it was a mistake and he never bottomed. I was so horny, I agreed to bottom unless it hurt too much. Let me say, my dick is pretty thick and more than a few guys took a while to take it all, but this guy who even though, he had at least an 8 inch dick, it was fairly thin. We bought an enema and I used it along with a few refills of water till it ran clear, then he lubed the hell out of my asshole with his finger and I admit it felt pretty good. I have used fingers and didoes in my ass before, but his one finger at first, then his 2 fingers felt pretty amazing. There is something about giving control of your body to another person. It's a bit humiliating, a bit feminizing and a lot of a rush all at the same time.
When I was fully lubed, he lubed his dick and I laid on the bed with my legs in the air, he touched his knob to my asshole and said push a bit like taking a crap. I did and his knob popped right in. I thought, shit this is easy, he feels great, then he started to push and the pain came, I jerked, he stopped and then working together a bit at a time, he got his whole dick in me. It definitely hurt, but not for long, it went away in maybe a minute or two, then this odd sense of something like a deep liking for this guy whose cock was deep in my ass overcame me. He started pumping and before long I was practically begging for more. Noises were coming out of my mouth that even I didn't recognize. I fucking loved it. Then I shortly started to feel a slight pressure building in my crotch, I'm still not sure where, but I looked down and this steady stream of precum was leaking from my rock hard cock. I was in total ecstasy. He kept fucking me and I kept leaking and feeling incredible for maybe ten minutes, then this shuddering feeling overtook every inch of my body and I had the strongest orgasm of my life, shooting streams of cum everywhere, from my untouched cock. It was absolutely fucking amazing, at this second, I loved this guy who gave me this for as long as it lasted. He came shortly after I did and I even loved the feeling of his warm cum filling my ass. I wanted his cum in my ass for as long as I could, but it slowly ****** out dammit, lol.
I am now versatile, but if a guys cock isn't too thick, I prefer to bottom. I have had explosive orgasms, untouched like the first time again, though not as often as I wish, but I still leak precum all over. I get so horny with a dick in my ass still, I cum with only a little hand help from me or a little hand or mouth action from my partner. But the reason I wanted to share my experience is that cum or not, leak or not, having a hard cock pounding your asshole and being at the mercy of the guy fucking you is incredible. At least it is for me,,,try it tops, you never know.